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The Big Fat Meanie
04:25
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I wish I wasn’t the only thing they talked about
I try to raise my voice but they won’t hear me out
And now they all have my back against the wall
Left me no choice so I don’t care at all
Now you see the spectrum
Of my true colors
Black and white to all
But my big fat lover
I’m a big fat meanie
And I threw out my name
I’m a big fat meanie
But I can explain
Hey!
Rejected and defamed at the loss of my pride in my name
But what did I do, to deserve all of this pain?
I have nothing to gain
One, two
One, two, three, four!
It’s not my fault or my problem
I have hit rock bottom
I’m a big fat meanie
And I threw out my name
I’m a big fat meanie
But I can explain
Sometimes we all must hit rock bottom
To find the light from above
Finding myself with shadows cast over me
The time has come to set myself free
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2. |
Meet Me at the Downbeat
06:29
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I go to bed with myself
Every night it’s the same
I have no one to blame
But if there were someone else
Then maybe the walls wouldn’t be so loud
I spent my last reality check
On some liquid peace of mind
On my left I see an angel with his head in the gutter
But on the right the devil is waiting in line
It seems like nothing can save me
From this monster I’m becoming.
What’s the use in fighting? It’s so inviting
To give in for one more night
I hate that my life is not catered
Don’t call me on my bullshit hater, I’ll see you later
Temper thinner than a razor
My mind is made up
I’m living this night the way i want no chaser
No, I don’t chase drinks I chase dreams
But only with a foggy head;
It’s my philosophy.
Philosophies, I sound like Aristotle.
But I’m looking for my dreams at the bottom of a bottle.
So get up and dance, shake off that funny feeling
Everybody’s got something that they’re dealing with
Grab a glass, there’s no substitution
Press your lips to mine and find the solution
It seems like you alone can save me
From this monster I’ve become
What’s the use in fighting? It’s so inviting
To give in for one more night
We numb our bodies but we still can't sleep,
We’re looking at the ground beneath our feet
There’s a place where all the demons go to meet
Well you can meet me at the Downbeat
Where we can be so lonely with the company that we keep
Company that we keep
I need to redefine myself
But I know I can’t be trusted
Seems like my luck has all run out
And my ambition has turned to dust
It relieves the pain
But what you get are demons on your back
It’s time to leave but the room is turning black
We numb our bodies but we still can't sleep,
We’re looking at the ground beneath our feet
There’s a place where all the demons go to meet
Well you can meet me at the Downbeat
Where we can be so lonely with the company that we keep
Company that we keep
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My day consumes me, am I losing
All the dreams that chase me down each night?
So take advantage of me
I’ll never know because I’m too far gone
My days are far to long
Is it worth it to even try to get some sleep
When all this meaning is so meaningless to me?
I can’t still be moving, am I human?
Is the sky still navy blue? It always seems so bright…
So take advantage of me
I’ll never know because I’m too far gone
My days are far to long
Is it worth it to even try to get some sleep
When all this meaning is so meaningless to me?
So take advantage of me
I’ll never know because I’m too far gone
My days are far to long
Is it worth it to even try to get some sleep
When all this meaning is so meaningless to me?
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4. |
Voyager
08:56
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Wait
I’ll come around, just not today
And if I stay, please don’t wake me up
Fade
Into something I can taste
And if I take this step then I’m done
I’m not coming down, I’m coming alive
I’m not gonna drown when I take this
Dive into extraordinary (whoa)
Dive into extraordinary (whoa)
I’m not coming down, I’m coming alive
I’m not gonna drown when I take this
Dive into extraordinary (whoa)
Dive into extraordinary (whoa)
I’m living a lie
They’re tying me down
I know there’s nothing left for me here
Don’t question it
Don’t turn around
Like a broken record playing in my ear, yeah
Dive into extraordinary
Dive into extraordinary
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Drop the pain into the bottom of the sea
I left my problems and my past behind me
I told myself that I won't fall
But I know I really haven't changed at all
Tell me what I want to hear
But I will always be the same
Casting out a line
Looking for a sign
Trying to convince myself that everything is fine
Got to make a change
Before they read my mind
I'll keep fishin'
The pain pulls me to the bottom of the sea
My problems always seem to catch up to me
I don't mean to fish and moan
But in the end I always swim alone
Tell me what I want to hear
But I will always be the same
Casting out a line
Looking for a sign
Trying to convince myself that everything is fine
Got to make a change
Before they read my mind
So I'll keep fishin'
I’ll keep fishin'
Tell me what I want to hear
I will always be the same
Look around and see that no one’s looking back
These haunting words I can’t forget
They say this loneliness lasts only for a time
But I can’t see the end quite yet
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6. |
Redefined
04:58
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Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m falling under pressure
The kings and all their horses couldn’t put me back together
People’s faces change, people need stay the same
Lately I’ve been feeling like
I’m movin’ to a different beat
I’m tired of the same old thing
I’m movin’ to a different beat
It’s not the same as it used to be
It’s not the same as it used to be
I’m movin’ to a different beat
I’m tired of the same old thing
I’m movin’ to a different beat
Do you think I’m in too deep?
Do you think I’m in too deep?
It’s not the same as it used to be
Do you think I’m in too deep?
I’m movin’ to a different beat
I’m tired of the same old thing
I’m movin’ to a different beat
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7. |
Burn
05:55
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Find
Find a way every day
To keep looking up, I
Try
Try to see through the trees that shroud my mind. My
Dreams
Of better days, another place, or a different time.
Away,
Some time to think, reflect
Where this road will lead...
Stay the course
Take this tiny vessel and point it home
How did we get so far gone?
I guess we’ll never know.
Speak
Foundations laid, a promise made.
His paradox, disparaged, locked
Away.
A saving grace.
Small hands misplaced in an endless game.
Stay the course
Take this tiny vessel and point it home
How did we get so far gone?
I guess we’ll never know.
Stay the course
Take this tiny vessel and point it home
How did we get so far gone?
I guess we’ll never know.
Our mothers used to tell us in our hands would rest the future
Choose it wisely; follow blindly the words of this abuser
Sell you belief? - You’ve been ripped off
I’m on the edge of my seat, kinda pissed off.
False hope and a broken system
We had a hero but we barely missed him
The ringing of an honest voice, a voice of wisdom now
Is barely heard among the shouting from this hateful clown
The hate that propagates the nation that we create
Building walls won’t solve the fall of all we make.
Make Excuses for yourself like it’s good for your health
Rain like golden showers now you’re going to hell.
Controlling all of us from a golden throne you didn’t earn,
But sooner or later every one of us will watch you burn
Sighs become a shout, it starts to grow.
prepare yourselves for war, man your posts!
Sighs become a shout, it starts to grow.
prepare yourselves for war, man your posts!
Forward steps but they always get washed away.
Want to change but I can’t wait to watch it all burn.
Stay the course
Take this tiny vessel and point it home
How did we get so far gone?
I guess we’ll never know.
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8. |
Solitude
04:51
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Hold my breath
In your hands
Held my tongue
Over and over again
Hiding Scars
Fighting back
Chemically
Fall from this balancing act
Wait for morning sun
If tomorrow comes
Counting days I’m losing all my nights
Start to feel myself fading
Choke on swallowed sleep, my swallowed pride
Saving face under masks we’re painting
Getting harder to see between these blurring lines
That I create.
I'll wait for morning sun
If tomorrow comes
Solitary nights
Rooftop city lights
Always look behind
Is the sky still navy blue?
Shadows in the back of my mind
(what do I think, what do I feel, what do I say, what do I do?)
I’m keeping time to timeless ends
Keep on moving, keep on going
Do it over and over and over and over
Hell-bent hearts find a way
to keep composure day to day
My choice is made
I’ll stay.
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9. |
A Way Out
06:40
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Lost
Lost in an unfamiliar home
The roads I walk are leading to a place I’d never go
Thoughts
Cause me to bite my fingers till they bleed
Forced to travel over bridges far and live the life they want me to lead
(What’s the matter)
Oh what’s the matter with me
(Ship is sinking)
My ship is sinking but I’ll
Find a way out
(What’s the matter)
Oh what’s the matter with me?
(Ship is sinking)
My ship is sinking
(Vanishing)
To the vanishing place beneath
(Storm is rising)
A storm is rising but I’ll
Find a way out
Lost
Like the watches that dictate the time of day so away we stay from our own
To walk in a place far from the constraints of home
Bones broken by the bonds, cut my hands in place of severed
Ties shackling me to the others
Words that smother
You can’t say that i’m not trying
I know I’ll find a way
Although all of us are dying
We’re dying to remain
(Will I find, will I find, will I find my way out?)
(Will I find, will I find, will I find my way out?)
Will I find my way out?
You can’t say that i’m not trying
I know I’ll find a way
Although all of us are dying
We’re dying to remain
(Will I find, will I find, will I find my way out?)
(Will I find, will I find, will I find my way out?)
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10. |
Arrival
07:16
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Take it slow
One step forward
One step at a time
Who’s to know?
I can’t see whats keeping me in line.
These lines have taken me and shaken me,
But I’m not breaking down.
I’m down, I’ll hear you out, now sink or swim I’ll dive.
It’s a long way back from here
so look alive, look alive
(Take it back! Fall in line!)
I’m not a prisoner of my mind
Take a breath
Breathe it in
Take a breath
Rejuvenate yourself again
It’s a long way back from here
so look alive, look alive
(Take it back! Fall in line!)
I’m not a prisoner of my mind
No, I’m not a prisoner
So take advantage of me
I’ll never know because I’m too far gone
Is it worth it to even try to get some sleep
If all this meaning is so meaningless to me?
Sometimes we all must hit rock bottom
To find the light from above
Finding myself with shadows cast over me
The time has come…
It’s a long way back from here
so look alive, look alive
(Take it back! Fall in line!)
I’m not a prisoner of my mind
No, I’m not a prisoner
Whoa, whoa
It’s a long way back
My time has come…
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